grumpyThe Grumpy Life
January 17th 2008 12:29
You know that old question about what would you take if you were going to be stranded on a desert island?
Well, I don't want to be stranded on a desert island, I want to live just where I am and stay here for as long as possible. I was thinking about that today while I was cleaning up the horse shit in one of the paddocks above the house. The sun was on my back, the smell of grass was in the wind and the whole world seemed to be layed out below me in a vista of trees, hills and valleys - which is, I guess, exactly how it is here. I realised that not only had I made just about all my dreams come true, but that for the first time in my life, I really was happy, happy that is to just be; content with everything I have - which is bugger all, I might add.
I climbed back onto my old Yamaha ATV and wondered if this was not better than anything heaven might have to offer. In fact, I wondered if I should die and there was a chance that I might find that we do survive in some other realm of the universal mind, that I might have just what I have now, rather than any more "heavenly" paradise.
Still, I hope I don't die for a while yet - there is so much worth doing, so much worth saying, so much of my life which needs to be put in proper perspective and used for the benefit of all. I have done so much, been so many things and seen so many things - but kept it all inside, like a slowly compiling encyclopaedia of life. Somehow I feel the need to share it now, before it's too late - before I only have God to share it with.
I guess that's why I'm here at night, writing for whatever reason. I'm a pretty tough, hard old bastard but I can feel the shadow standing just behind my left shoulder some days. He's been there for a long time and we have this sort of agreement thing about me not stopping until it's all done, till it's truly been made worthwhile, till I've done everything I came here to do.
Well, I think I have just about finished what I was supposed to do for me - but I have feeling there are still a few things I need to do for the rest of the world - little things perhaps, but things that add rather than subtract.
So I'll take my mountain paradise, keep writing, forking up horse shit and be content with that - and heaven can wait.
Well, I don't want to be stranded on a desert island, I want to live just where I am and stay here for as long as possible. I was thinking about that today while I was cleaning up the horse shit in one of the paddocks above the house. The sun was on my back, the smell of grass was in the wind and the whole world seemed to be layed out below me in a vista of trees, hills and valleys - which is, I guess, exactly how it is here. I realised that not only had I made just about all my dreams come true, but that for the first time in my life, I really was happy, happy that is to just be; content with everything I have - which is bugger all, I might add.
Still, I hope I don't die for a while yet - there is so much worth doing, so much worth saying, so much of my life which needs to be put in proper perspective and used for the benefit of all. I have done so much, been so many things and seen so many things - but kept it all inside, like a slowly compiling encyclopaedia of life. Somehow I feel the need to share it now, before it's too late - before I only have God to share it with.
I guess that's why I'm here at night, writing for whatever reason. I'm a pretty tough, hard old bastard but I can feel the shadow standing just behind my left shoulder some days. He's been there for a long time and we have this sort of agreement thing about me not stopping until it's all done, till it's truly been made worthwhile, till I've done everything I came here to do.
So I'll take my mountain paradise, keep writing, forking up horse shit and be content with that - and heaven can wait.
Oldina after the rain
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Comment by Damo
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I enjoyed this.
It is refreshing to read something is not a wild rant from the top of a high horse or two.
Also
I have dreams too, but for some reason they do not include horse shit.
I am told by more superstitious people that dreams that include shit indicate that you will be receiving some money soon.
Never did understand that.
Comment by D. Armenta
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I hope you are recording your stories on paper,as well as here, Grumpy, and including your pictures. It would be a shame to have all of those experiences lost, "like tears in rain"..